absolutely cannot wait!

Dear Blogger, 

Through out each day, I often find myself turning on my phone, just to take a couple seconds to look at my wallpaper. 

Call me a dork, a mushball or whatever name you'd like, but I can't get enough of that smile. 

Within not even two days time, I'll be seeing that handsome smile in person. 

That's right! Theron is due home on the 1st. 

And I am sooo dang excited!! Until then though, I get to drain the battery life out of my phone by turning it on and off, alllll the time, just to see his face. 

Won't be long now! :)

today

down by the bay

and here's a little bit of news... Theron comes home on the 1st! But only for a short 10 days.. Hoping this other company pulls through and he's hired, so we won't have to worry about his schedule always changing and being incredibly inconvenient. Not only that, but instead of him away from home for 2/3 of the year, it'll change to only half the year. :) Crossing my fingers!

Have a fabulous weekend everybody!

troubled

Dear Blogger,

These last few days are taking a toll on me, more than what I have been letting anyone let on to see.. And by few days I mean the past week. My mind is constantly on the go and filled to brim ready to overflow from a million worries. Seems like it anyway. I'm someone that whenever I am presented with an issue, no matter how small or large, I give in and it gets the best of me. My sleeping problems are slowly creeping up on me again, and I haven't been going to sleep until around 4AM in the morning, only to wake up when Landon does. It takes so much just to roll myself out of bed. Money. The fact that it is currently non existent in our life, at the moment, is our worse problem. Our fridge is near empty, the only thing we really have is plenty of milk and cereal, juice, a box of Brick Oven pizza and a couple TV dinners. There's a half tank of gas in the car and there's 10 dollars in my wallet to last us until the 5TH of next month. I am so grateful to have two amazing families. Mine and Theron's, who are always right there to help us if we need it. I keep asking myself should I get a job? Is it worth giving up the time I have everyday with Landon, while after every hitch home we're always near having to ask to borrow money from our family? Will I make enough to profit after the price of daycare? Should I get a part time like I have now and risk not getting called in for almost two months cause it's unbelievably slow? A full time? I want the best for Landon. I want the best for all of us. I'm waiting for the day when I can finally sit back and say 'this is it, i'm where I wanna be'. I always feel like nothing horrible can happen to people who are at the utmost genuinely good at heart, good all around, that things will always work out, because they don't deserve it any other way. There is so much more on my mind, emotional, personal things, that I don't want to say because it involves others.. I think id like to create a blog for my sister. She has a lot of issues, major life threatening issues, she's dealing with and nowhere to look, no one to go to except my mother and me.. I don't wanna press it too much on here, I don't want to expose her personal life for just anyone. I think i'm done for now.. I've been so absent on blogging lately. I'm sorry for all the wonderful posts I missed out on. And I don't think I'll honestly ever have the time to catch up on them. I will probably go scam a few of my favorites...

Goodbye for now!

Oh and I was going to do a separate post, might as well add it on here seeing as I don't know when the next time I'll be able to write will be.

Would anyone like to button swap for February? :)

I know my followers are on the low side of the scale. But if anyone is doing swapping, id love in and to try to and get my blog out there more to the world.

going on four days,

Dear Blogger,

I am officially four days behind on you. I have four days of catching up on reading that needs to be done. That will take me at least a few hours to complete... And at the moment, I still don't even have the time to start. I may begin sometime this evening, hopefully. I am going to leave you with a couple collages though from what we have been up to - tons of family time.

Yum.

And most importantly, what we absolutely cannot waaaait for...

That's right, Monster Jam! (If you don't know by now, Landon is the hugest Monster Jam fan. He knows the name of every truck and pretty much has the entire collection, lol)

Promise I will be getting on again tonight!!

Hope everybody is enjoying their weekend!! :)

white chocolate filled raspberries

If these aren't the simplest and delightful sweets you've ever seen...

>> How to !!

d.i.y. Sea shell mirrors

Hand crafted sea shell mirror.

All I needed -

• framed mirror - $4/each (From >> Michaels)
• sea shells by the sea shore - $0(you can purchase shells in any craft store)
• glue gun - $7
• patience - what's that?

I had three of the four...


An extra, but not necessary -  Polyurethane. I coat all my shells before I begin any project with them, to give them a wet, glossy look.

If shells are non store bought, clean them in a bucket or sink with 1/4 cup of bleach.


Not only is it incredibly easy, if you search for your own sea shells, it's unbelievably affordable.

And I just found this on the Michaels website, for all you parents out there.. craft to do togethers with the kids right >> hereee!

Hope everyone had a wonderfuuul weekend! :)

I am giving in

Dear Blogger,

It wasn't too long ago that Theron and I broke Landon from the habit of sleeping in our bed. When he was an infant to about being in his late twos he slept in his crib/bed, besides when we stayed at my moms because the crib stayed at Theron's parents house. We always packed our bags and moved in with him for the duration of his days off. It wasn't until 6 months ago that we took the step to live on our own, and moved into a home, for us. This is where the trouble began on the whole issue. I maybe, kinda, sorta, screwed up.. and whenever Theron left I had Landon sleep with me, in his and I's bed. I know I know... whyyy on Earth did I do this? Truth be told, I am one of 'those' moms.. The one who constantly worries, no matter who he's with, always wanting to call every single hour to know what he's doing.. Theron and I had to give up vacation time because I couldn't stand being away from Landon for more than one night. He calls me crazy... But whatever. So, when we got our own place, everything was fine.. he went to sleep in his room, Theron and I went to in ours... I think what made me do it was Theron leaving, and having to not only go to sleep in an empty bed, but an empty room. Landon never had his own room until now. His crib/bed was always right next to my side of the bed. And now i'm alone in my own room. I didn't last a night. I went and scooped him up from his bed, while he was sleeping, and put him in bed with me. And from then on out he slept with me every night Theron was gone. So you could imagine when Theron got home and he wanted his bed back, little Landon wasn't all too happy. Let's get real, there is no room for all of us on that thing. Let alone us two the way Theron sleeps, my goodness. But he would have a fit for the first week, then would realize he might as well just do it cause he really isn't going to sleep in our bed... But as soon as he was back on track, and Theron left again, he was right back in bed with me. I missed sleeping with him, and I just didn't wanna sleep alone.. I think Landon feels that way too, because he wakes up every single morning(seriously, he doesn't miss a day out of the month) at around 3 am to come jump in bed with me. Of course I let him at least do that.. But Theron made it clear to me that I can no longer let him sleep in our bed. So for the last couple months, when it's time for sleep, Landon and I fall asleep in our own rooms. I miss him at night. Let's face the fact though.. it tears me up sleeping alone. 

So this is what I am going to do, every Saturday night i'm going to give in. I'm going to have Landon sleep in our bed. Every Saturday night. Starting tonight, hehe. And I am so ready to go snuggle up with my little mans. So goodnight Blogger! :)

Landon, Mommy and a Tripod

Indoor Picnic

Dear Blogger,

Landon and I planned to go on a picnic today at a park near by. Unfortunately for us though, we had to cancel due to weather. Well.. not completely cancel. We did have our picnic... just.. a little bit differently then normal ones... :)