Philippe Park.

Theron was such a good sport. I love him even more for doing this for me, lol. :)

A few Instagram's ..

Life is well. At the moment, I couldn't ask for more. Lately I have been feeling extra thankful for all I have. Mostly for being blessed with my amazing little family. For Landon and for Theron. Since I met Theron, and the moment Landon was born, I couldn't imagine life without either. I love them both with every part of my heart and soul.

Not so typical to cry over.

Since Landon was just a tiny baby, we found a hand-me-down plush duck toy. The kind where you pull the ring at the bottom and it would play a sweet lullaby. Landon never went a night without him, except maybe a few, and even those nights were restless and he would cry for a good amount of time before falling asleep. Up to this day he has had the same duck. It went from yellow to a dirt stained color, it no longer played music, and most of the fuzz on its nose was gone from being sucked and chewed on.. But Landon still loved him either way. 

One night we came home from Nana's house, he's asleep so I put him on the couch, by this time I already realized all the cotton spread across the floor. I looked everywhere trying to figure out where it came from. I thought maybe it was from the couch.. As I went to shut the door I caught a glimpse of Landon's duck's feet hiding behind it, also surrounded by cotton.. Before I even started walking over there I was already saying to myself  'No, no, noooo' pleading to whoever that the stuffing on the floor wasn't from his duck.. By the time I reached it I was already crying, the tears already reached my jaw bones. Once I picked him up and have him a look, the hysteria began. And Landon didn't even know yet because he was sleeping? Yet here I am bawling my eyes out because I know once he does see it, his big little heart is going to be torn to pieces... 

I went to the car to grab other things I couldn't get before.. When I got back inside Sizer had already tried jumping on the couch and Landon and woke him up. I walked in the door and he was crying standing by the couch. I run over and scoop him up in my arms, he's crying and i'm already emotional so I cry again.. I sit down on the couch, him in my lap, and I lift up his duck to show him what Sizer did... and he loses it. He began crying SO badly. I just held him as tight as I could while we cried together.. for the next 30 minutes or so. 

Luckily, we had a previous scare where we thought we lost his duck, Theron found the same one online and ordered it. It was sitting safely over at Theron's moms house. So that next day he got another duck, not the same old worn out one he loved... but it was going to have to do.. It took him only a day to warm up to him, I had to do a couple modifications to him to make him look more like his old one. 

I am keeping his other duck, well.. whats left of it. The body is still fairly intact. the head is not fixable though.  But I had always planned to keep him forever. He is the most important thing Landon had grown up with, so it's important to me also. We will be making sure this new duck is kept put away when he's not using it, to avoid anymore duckie disasters. 

Lately through instagram

Where do I even begin??

Ever had a great idea, to do something, and don't know where to begin? That's me, right about now.

When Theron and I first got together over five years ago, and I was just getting in the scene of being around his family all the time, I remember when I saw his mom working on this shell mirror(which to this day is still in complete, she's quite the procrastinor). It was huge, and beyond beautiful. It had large shells, small shells, colorful shells, rare shells, shells I have never seen before on the beach. And Lord knows how long it took her to collect all these things! She had vase upon vase filled to the brim with shells, buckets, baskets. I was a little taken aback. Then there was this time I went on the back porch and started helping her paint the shells with a clear shiny coat of paint, to keep them looking wet. she would individually paint these little, big shells each, and set them out to dry. The whole process takes a long time.. but my goodness, afterwards the shells are gorgeous. So one day I decided to try out my out little shell mirror project. I went to Michael's and bought a couple $2 plain thick frame mirrors. The wood not yet coated with paint, just sanded. I got back to Theron's house, used his mothers glue gun and some of her shells as well as mine I began to collect from the beach, and started getting at it. Took a good few hours, mind you these mirrors are not that big at all, just regular 8x10. I was beyond satisfied with the outcome. They came out as I imagined, even better!

Find them here<<

I guess what has been weighing on my mind for quiet some time is that Id love to take this little hobby of mine further. Handcraft mirrors, frames, or anything someone throws at me. Just to make a few extra bucks on the side. Maybe have a little online shop. That brings me back to the reason of this post. Where do I even begin? I don't know how to create a website, advertise... I don't know how to do anything to get this little idea of mine started. I know there are a ton of ladies on here who have their own little shops online for all their nifty things they make. If anyone out there can help me, please do.

I've always wanted to do this, for years.. I'm motivated now more than ever, I just don't have a clue on how to go about it. I guess Landon and I better start going to the beach again to collect some sea shells, hehe.

Slowly but surely,

I seem to be drifting further and further away from the blogging world.. I no longer feel the need to want to check it when I jump on the computer in my free time. I never know what to write about. Life is uneventful for the most part. I don't feel like I write for me. And who am I kidding? I'm not even big on writing or expressing myself.. There isn't even a point in me keeping this, I think. To keep track of photos and things I can remember? I've been thinking about ridding this whole blogging thing. Maybe if something interesting happens in my life, worth talking about, sharing with others... I may create a new one. I'm not certain... I may keep it to just write about things from time to time. But I definitely won't be writing like I used to. Hope everyone has had an amazing Easter, fun with family love and tons of fun!

I've been tagged!

I have been tagged in this neat little bloggy questionaire game! Thanks Kandice! :)

the rules are as follows:

- post these rules

- post a photo and eleven random things about yourself

- answer the questions provided by the one who tagged you

- create eleven new questions for the people you tag

- contact those you choose and let them know they've been tagged

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Let's start with the randoms, shall we?

I think that whatever Landon does or say is over the top adorable. Even his little farts. 

Theron and I have been together for over five years. 

I think I might cry when Picnik is officially closed. I don't know any other site that is even close to Picnik. Suggestions???

I'm one of the most disorganized people you may know. You can't even walk through our bedroom without stepping all over laundry. :x

I'm employed and my job consists of waxing people. I love it. Don't catch me on a bad day ;b

I have been bugging Theron for the past month to buy me an engagement ring. Such a horrible thing to bug your boyfriend about, but how long does a gal gotta wait?? 

My favorite food to eat is pasta.(spaghetti, ziti, lasagna, etc.)

I am taller than the average chick. I'm 5'11". And I haaate it! :/

I'm a huge gamer. While most girls beg for their significant other to get off of their game system, I'm sitting next to mine kicking his arse! :x

I was pregnant with Landon while I was still in highschool. And I walked with my class with a big ole' belly. 

I am proud to say I am a nonsmoker and drinker, :)
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Kandice's eleven questions..

1. what is your most preferred genre of music (or, if you'd rather, your favorite artists)?

My favorite genre of music has to be classic rock. But my favorite artist is Claudio Sanchez from Coheed and Cambria.

2. what are your top three favorite things out of everything?

Landon's smile and laugh, shoppinggg, and theron being home from work.

3. what kind of kid were you growing up - weirdo, bully, in the band, an athlete, theater folk, etc?

I was a total Tomboy. Hung with the boys and did whatever they did. I even wore boy clothes sometimes up until High school, lol.

4. have you been to concerts? who was your favorite?

I go almost every year to Rib Fest, which is all classic music. And my favorite band I heard was Styx. Love them.

5. what are your top two favorite films?

Australia is my most favorite. My second.. id have to say Avatar. 

6. what's a strange habit that you have?

Hm.. I'm not sure if I have any strange habits... I can't really think of anything other than the common nail biting. 

7. what is your favorite memory or moment in life?

Ah.. there was never a moment more perfect or memorable than when Landon was born, handed to me wrapped in his little blanket for the first time and him looking at me and I at him at the same exact moment, for the very first time. :)

8. do you want kids? how many?

I already have Landon, and Id like more, the amount is unknown. I won't know until the day comes that I feel as though I'm finished having kids. Right now I could say two, but in the future, I may want three or four. Time will tell, :)

9. what's something strange that your significant other does?

Theron has this thing where he grinds his teeth, all the time.

10. are you good at math? (tell me how bad you are at math.)

It was my best subject in school that I always passed with A's, :)

11. what's your favorite thing about yourself?

I don't have anything about myself that I truly, really like. 

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My questions to youuu..

1. Do you play any musical intstruments?

2. Do you remember your first pet? 

3. Your favorite present you've ever received on your Birthday or Christmas.

4. What is your favorite type of clothing to wear? Preferred color?

5. Are you a video gamer?

6. Did you used to have a deep dark secret that you came out about?

7. Favorite recipe? :)

8. Are you a book worm? What are some of your top reads?

9. If you worked at a zoo, which animals would you chose to take care of?

10. The funniest thing that you have ever seen?

11. Favorite guilty pleasure?

My tags areeeeee...

Noe at Our Beautiful Little Journey

Nicole at Nicole Marie

Kristen at Whiskey Tango Foxtrot

Bonnie at Makin' Plans

Whitney at Black Little Button

Ashley at Hudson's Happenings

the downfall to our relationship... happy valentine's day..

Dear Blogger,
Today I spent Valentine's Day, lonely as HECK in the sense that I wasn't with the love of my life. Sure, I was surrounded by some family, in general the day was good. But the sentimental value the day itself holds, never made it's appearance. I spent all day missing Theron. Just wishing he could be here and spend the day with me. If there were any way he could have flown in for a single day and go back out the next, I would be okay with that. It isn't easy reading updates through out the day about my girlfriends getting all the love in the world their heart desires and then some, while i'm stuck unable to create memories with the one I love because Theron is hundreds of miles away from me. What I wouldn't do to be able to have a normal relationship with him. To be able to see him e.v.e.r.y day. Never having to worry about going to sleep alone. It would be nice to not always cook TV dinners cause what's the point of making a huge dinner mess for one and a half people? Having things go unfixed for weeks until he can get home to make it right. That feeling of being overwhelmed and he isn't here to help me. Most of all he misses out on so much, we as a family miss out. It's unbelievably difficult.. And there is no worse feeling in the world when you need that someone you love, but you can't have them, there's nothing you can do to change it. Feeling hopeless is awful. And it's something I constantly have to deal with. I know he does what he has to do to take care of Landon and I, if there were any other way to do it, he would quit his job in a heart beat without thinking twice about it. I know as soon as I get off of here, I'll get myself ready for sleep, curl up in the bed under our blankets and cry to the point where I run myself dry of tears and fall asleep by exhaustion from bawling. It happens every night that he misses out on something he should be here for. Every single time. No matter how many years we have to do this, it never gets any easier. It's been three years and it's just as hard now as it was since day one. I wish he was here. I needed him today and I need him now. I'm on the verge of a break down and I can only imagine him coming up behind me, pulling me towards him and kissing me to reassure that things are alright. What some people often take for granted, I cherish beyond belief. Simple little kisses on the forehead, for no reason. A short holding of each others hands, even if it's just walking from the car to inside the grocery store. Arguing about who is taking up the most room on the bed. Some things I wish I could be able to do every day, go unnoticed by those who have it. And remember that corny saying, 'you never know what you have until it's gone'? I cannot stress enough on how unbelievably true that statement is. I told myself in the beginning of the day that because I do have such an amazing man in my life, I will spend the day happy. But I could only fool myself for so long. No doubt, I have been grateful on this day that I have him, regardless if he was here or not he is my Valentine. But the day should not have been spent the way it was. I am not looking forward to the 27th of this month either... :(

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My favorite thing about this week was/is.. That Theron is currently home, and I JUST found a job that I absolutely love and cannot wait to begin training on Monday! :)

The weather is.. not feeling like winter at all. Thanks Florida! 8)

Three things that make me happy are.. My wonderful little family that keeps me on my toes and smiling every minute of the day. Knowing that shortly I will be working and making my own money to do things with. Theron's guitar playing.

Recent goal of mine is.. to have more home cooked, family meals at dinner time. It's next to impossible since we're always on the run when Theron is home visiting his and I's family.

Lately, I have a serious problem resisting.. to blog. There. I said it. :b

My favorite color to wear at the moment is.. navy blue.

I am thankful for.. food in our bellies, a roof over our heads and comfy pillows to lay our heads on when it comes time to sleep.

My weekend plans are to.. go to Monster Jam with Landon, Theron and my parents. I cannot wait to see the look on Landon's face when we go to the Pit Party and when it's time for the freestyle! So excited! :)

absolutely cannot wait!

Dear Blogger, 

Through out each day, I often find myself turning on my phone, just to take a couple seconds to look at my wallpaper. 

Call me a dork, a mushball or whatever name you'd like, but I can't get enough of that smile. 

Within not even two days time, I'll be seeing that handsome smile in person. 

That's right! Theron is due home on the 1st. 

And I am sooo dang excited!! Until then though, I get to drain the battery life out of my phone by turning it on and off, alllll the time, just to see his face. 

Won't be long now! :)

Ramblings of today.

Ahh, today was a gooood day.
Let me start off from last night.. Id like to thank Landon in particular for breaking my phone. I was beyond annoyed with it. It was always acting up, had something wrong with it all the time. If it wasn't one thing, it was another. It was slow, didn't alert me for incoming or missed calls, it would sit charging all night, taken off in the morning only to have it be put back on charge again by noon! No wonder they stopped manufacturing them suckers. But I went to Sprint yesterday with it in mind that Id like a new phone all together, which I wasn't sure if they would let me do that, even if it was of equal or lesser value. And to no one's surprise, they wouldn't allow it. BUT! they did give me a 550 dollar phone, for free, just by adding an additional line onto our account for another 20 bucks a month! Which I have been wanting a phone for the house anyhow, just for emergencies. So I got my new phone..

Samsung Conquer 4g(whatever 4g means? Something with signal I think?) At any rate! I was a little skeptic at first cause I'm one of those people who h.a.v.e. to have a keyboard. I figured I should just give it try.. who uses them anymore anyways, right? But they have this really neat thing called swype for all my typing. I don't have to lift my finger off the screen for each letter. I just drag my finger across the letters I need and it predicts the word for me. Who comes up with this stuff? It is convenient, but totally unnecessary if you ask me. And the BEST perk of all? Is I have a second camera on the front of my screen, and that means Theron and I get to video chat! Which we already have last night and tonight, LOVE IT! He showed me what he could of the boat, it was pretty cool, :). He said when my face is too close to the phone, that I look cross-eyed. So much for attempting to look hot for my man... :/ lol Anywho, I already am loving this phone so much more than my other one. And it was F.R.E.E. Can't get any better than that!

Anywhooo, back to today.. Landon and I woke up, he helped me make a yummy nutritional breakfast, to start off the morning. We sat down at the table and we discussed all the things we had and wanted to do today. Because he had to tag along with me for errands, which is no fun, I let him decide what we would do afterwards. He chose the park, naturally. We got all washed up, dressed and headed out the door. Did everything we need to do and went to the park.

We had to of been there over two hours, my feeties were hurting!(sandals don't have to be comfortable as long as they look good.) And he was beyond pooped out! Poor little guy, couldn't even put together full sentences while on the way home, lol. Once we got home, he did his favorite thing to do, which is youtube monster truck videos. While this momma made some chili spaghetti. Landon ate the spaghetti plain, :/ I don't think it has to do with my cooking, he just likes plain noodles, (really, it isn't my cooking!) :x

Oh, and something that truly makes my days, is getting a random picture from a certain somebody while he's gone... :)

I love his little Russian hat, he looked hottttttttt for our video chat with it on, hehe.
Miss that face entirely too much...